@kat Seconding others' assurances here, speaking as a professional software developer and hobbyist game dev/novelist with executive dysfunction.
As long as you keep your project scope manageable, your iterations small, and learn from each project, you'll be in good shape. It's a lot like design work that way.
@jaycie i'm more worried about like bigger projects tbh, i wouldn't mind redoing something that only took a couple days, but i'm anxious about like "oops there goes a year-long project"
@kat A reasonable fear because that is nigh-inevitable. Such an outcome does leave one with learnings, experience, and reusable assets, at least.
And you don't have to commit to year-long projects, either.
@jaycie oh boy i don't know if i can deal with just losing an entire game or something because i fucked up on day one haha
@ChlorideCull @jaycie this is like an executive dysfunction anxiety thing so i'm more worried about like "why bother starting if that's how it'll end up being someday" haha
@jaycie @ChlorideCull ahaha it's less scary because you can only fuck up one painting, not an entire year's worth of them
@kat @ChlorideCull I hear you. All the more reason to start with very small projects and save the larger ones for later.
@jaycie @ChlorideCull anxiety means it's kinda hard to start small stuff without having like a worst-case plan for big stuff later haha
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@kat @ChlorideCull I wish I had a better answer for anxiety-based issues than "keep attempting it until the anxiety goes away (from overexposure)." (I'm inebriated ATM, BTW.)
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@jaycie @ChlorideCull my answer is "i don't have the executive function to handle losing a year of work all at once so i should just never learn programming"
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@kat @ChlorideCull I emphasize, coming from the opposite direction of "I should never learn to draw" (despite going to art school for half my college education).
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@jaycie @ChlorideCull egh yeah i should probably just give up
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@kat @ChlorideCull I think you can still pull it off!
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@kat @ChlorideCull (Sober me would agree.)
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@jaycie @ChlorideCull egh iunno if i'm good enough to do it haha
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@kat None of us are when we start, only after we've made the attempt.
@ChlorideCull @kat I'm reminded of your recent post about art school and the realities of doing art, Kat. Lots of parallels there.